I have been doing a lot of reading about prayer latley…. what is prayer? Prayer is a fancy word for a basic conversation with our Lord and maker. Our Lord desires to have a very personal relationship with us.
I read a saying on social media one day of a church billboard that said ” God wants full custody, not just weekends!” Made perfect sense to me. As a mother of 4 and now one beautiful grandbeauty as my husband and I call her; I cannot see myself not being totaly involved in my kids lives. God desires the same thing!
I have never really had the struggle of “remembering” to pray. Having delt with severe depression since childhood I created a very early need to ask for help almost every minute of the day. Just waking in the morning before my eyes open, as my brain awakes to the birds chirperly singing what a beautiful morning it is outside, me on the other hand, not so much. Its a real struggle to open my eyes and get up. The days of being awoken to children fighting vs birds chirping has a whole new mood setter to the already despising of the morning. ( Let me clarify also, I do not sleep well having insomina and many other things that do not help my brain to get restful nights sleeps.)
So needless to say I have desired a deeper prayer life. Ever feel like your “prayers” are just bouncing around your room like a pinball machine, never really going anywhere? Ya… me too! Are you always asking or even demanding maybe even bargaining with God, ya me too!
I needed a new approach at this thing called communication with God. I want to use our Christian super power more effectively. Yes I said super power…. it is! The power to be align in Gods will, or even persuade it. Pretty powerful I’d say. I recently reread a book I love about prayer,
Fervent: A Woman’s Battle Plan to Serious, Specific and Strategic Prayer
By Priscilla Shirer
I totaly recommend every woman to read it! Even you men could probably get some good stuff from it too!
Considering I had a lot more to pray about recently with my husbands new cancer diagnosis I wanted to really narrow down how to hit home run prayers instead of pinball prayers.
I want to share this particular prayer with you all. I feel others could probally relate and maybe make it their own or something similiar as well.
Create in me a clean heart oh God. Help me to see my deepest sins, and change them now. I dont want to be 80 years old and realize I could have lived a life free from the bondage of sin, the devils grip on me. Free, from depression, chains broken and the burdens lifted.
I dont want to crawl to the finish line, I want to run or even fly on wings like eagles! I want to help the kingdom of God now. Search my heart oh God! Help me change, expose the things I have hidden away. Help me be what you created me to be; FREE!
Help me create in my childrens lives a lasting desire to know you more and more. Help me show my husband your unconditional love. When I awake let the deepest depths of hell be shaken! Knowing the power of prayer this one has! Let my will be your will alined perfectly!
Give me a heart of compassion to see the world through your eyes, to love people like you do!